Totally & utterly fed up

Still can't put blog back up due to ongoing issues

Can say pain still hits me daily and hammers me from time to time! Problem is that time to time is becoming more regular but because the pain isn't constantly crippling you forget how bad it can actually be and it hurts all the more emotionally and physically.

Still waiting for the referral / appointment to Pain Psychologist as the local NHS doesn't have enough capacity....an urgent referral still not actioned after 2yrs!!

Pain wise there isn't much, read nothing, they can do and my request for castration has been turned down due to it being "too drastic a move at this point" - at what point would it be acceptable? I've already been referred to mental health team due to suicidal ideation, so at what point is enough is enough for NHS?

I am literally clinging to job with finger tips and having to mask everything otherwise it'll mean P45

Prot to the vasectomy there was no health or sex issues yet since the post vasectomy pain diagnosis there has been erectile dysfunction and lack of desire....GP adamant it wasn't related to snip and simply a reaction to pain, nothing else all in my head and wouldn't do blood tests....forced issue and tests revealed testosterone levels through the floor. More meds prescribed...other issues have cropped up..latest one being vit D is at 15nmol...it should be 50+ - due to meds or snip? who knows

The amount of meds is creeping back up, the efficacy is falling and I'm hurting and in hell.

So just want to sleep and stay that way but promises have been made, instead I just exist

Update

It has been quite while since an update was posted here so I thought I would remedy that.

The site update was completed however due to ongoing issues I was advised to take the site down until those issues are remedied.

Suffice to say the pain is still very much present on a daily basis and still impacts greatly on many aspects of life.

If you, or someone you know, suffers from Post Vasectomy Pain Syndrome aka PVP aka PVPS then make sure you / they get as much information as they can on the subject and keep pushing for better pain relief.

The pain relief I am now on, methadone, has greatly helped - whilst its more "famous" use is to help wean people off opiate addiction, it is also a very good pain killer in its own right.

4 years of heavy duty pain medication has not done my body nor my mind any good, very horrible drugs but sadly very much needed.

Please, please if you know anyone considering a vasectomy then please put them off and save them from ruining their lives.

Blog overhaul...hopefully

Due to a few issues with formatting etc. I have decided to take the blog down.

After playing around with themes and colours I messed up (the adage of if it ain't broke don't fix it does come to mind)  and it's going to take a while to fix as there's a lot going on at the minute with the epididymectomy on the 7th September, a house move and my wife starting Uni.

Really hope I don't lose it all in the process as I have done in the past.